~KittyMeowMaxwell

No, but seriously. It seems like just as I think I'm getting on top of everything, something else goes wrong, or someone tells me I need to do something else. Now I have 22 reports to do, a review to do, and my coordinator says I've pushed my highest reading group too far too fast, and I need to do more comprehension activities with them in guided reading. Why the hell would anyone want to be a teacher?! I seriously feel like getting a career change right now.

But I know it will pass. I'm just really down this weekend and I don't know why.

It probably has something to do with the fact that it feels like nothing is going right with my Midna cosplay right now. I've spent, like, a month on the mock up of the freaking thing, and last weekend and this weekend I spent all of Saturdays working on it, only to get done one sleeve and half a bootie.

W

T

F

?

I so don't have time to waste like that. It's like my Anna costume. I hated it, the whole time I was making it. Still, I loved wearing it. Hopefully it be the same with Midna, although, if the mock one is anything to go by, I won't actually be able to sit down fast (I have to go slow) or walk at my normal pace (have to go slow as well) or lift my arms above my shoulders. And I definitely can't see when I'm wearing the helmet, so... going to be an interesting costume. I'll have to hold someone's hand all day. *dies*

I have made a resolution that when I finish the mock, I am going to put it aside and work on my Yuki cosplay for a while, to have a break from this one. I am stressing out that I'm not going to get them all done, and I so want to get them all done, because my goodness, do I ever want to cosplay FMA. I have wanted to since I first watched it.

Who, you ask?

Don't laugh.

BECAUSE I CAN DO SEME, DAMMIT!

Yes, that's right. Roy Mustang.

This will prove, just like Akito proved I can be evil when I want to be, that I can be seme when I want to be... providing the uke is uke enough. XD All I have to do is channel Lexis, right?

...right...?

XD Seriously, though, it will be so much fun.

I also can't wait for AVcon. The unbelievably hot and sexy Kaki is going to be The King to my Queen, and I can't tell you how excited I am about it. And I love my costume. Even if I have to wear pink hair. I still need to get shoes for it, and a new binding shirt, so it's not quite finished, because I haven't properly fitted the jacket or hemmed the pants (because of lack of compression and appropriate shoes) I just have to do that, then add the little strap thing at the small of the back, and the cufflinks to the shirt, and it'll be done.

Yuki shouldn't take too long, and the basics of Roy's jacket shouldn't either, but the detailing thereon might prove a challenge. On the plus side, I can use the same pants for both cosplays. Epic.

I am undecided what to do about AVcon on the Saturday (man, I'm jumping around from point to point so randomly in this journal... awesome). I was set on doing Namine`, but the freezing-my-butt-off issue is a huge one. I spent the whole Saturday of Supanova with the freezing-my-butt-off issue. Do I want to do that again?

Hmm.

Epic cosplay...

Freezing-my-butt-off...

Epic cosplay...

Freezing-my-butt-off...

Guh. Maybe in the end I'll toss a coin, and still not be able to decide. If I didn't do Namine`, I would want to do Xemnas, so that would mean new wig and new gloves, because we all know how phail my old wig was, and my gloves have disappeared somewhere... I have no idea where. Suspect Lesser Nobodies to be the culprits. *shifty eyes*

DAMN YOU LESSER NOBODIES! I CAN NEVER GET GLOVES TO FIT, AND THOSE WERE PERFECT! *fistshake*

Man, I am so morose right now. I'm like swinging from hyper to completely down in the dumps, and contemplation of everything in my life that sucks. I miss Eoko and I know she must be having a great time at her con with her new girlfriend. Which, it seems, when I am in such a morose state, that everyone has but me (not necessarily a g/f, but a significant other). And I wonder if I have let chances pass by, if I should have made different decisions or something. I wonder if, as Kuy and I often joke, I will end up the crazy old lady with a hundred cats, and nothing else.

When I get emo, I really do it with a bang.

I am annoying. *dies* I'm annoying myself right now with this. What I really need is some really random, genki RP.

Ah well.

Maybe tomorrow. XD